Desperate Or Needy?

Well, most the times people aren’t ready for a relationship yet. At times, we feel pressurized, could be from society or a parental pressure or sometimes the desperateness from inside of being lonely. This is not totally correct, I reckon a person must only get committed once when is fully ready that too with someone with full degree of compassion.

What I find these days with everyone is totally reverse. A guy want a partner with desperateness and a girl needs a partner with necessity. In other words, a guy want to be with a girl who may is in need of a partner.  They deeply go in search of a partner with almost care and concern only to make sure they get compromised or adjusted. Like they say, you can’t find happiness, but once adjusted or make some room happiness comes sits beside you. So, years and years you wait for someone who can listen to you, and follow your orders. Phew!!! I feel that level of clarity, compassion and focus of picking a suitable partner if kept in pursuing sales target or becoming rich, and then you never know where you would reach.

I don’t believe this existed couple of years ago, but these days it’s become excessive. Well, what I mean are calculations we make for a relationship (relationship I mean be it dating someone or a marriage). A person is always calculating a strategy to pursue a person who is actually either is ‘Desperate’ or in ‘need’. What makes is more crazy is that there is no purpose of that relation at all sometimes.

I had to dismiss so called “Love marriage” concept because I don’t believe that term even exists for me at all. To be more honest, I was always been into one of the weak relations before like a ‘Giver’ or sometimes as ‘Taker’. I don’t know if I could call myself needy or desperate but that just made me realize to be more independent or stronger or self-sufficient.

My point is, what you ‘need’ and ‘want’ is life reflects your own helplessness in the face of the uncertainty of fate. Our triviality towards life and feelings, this is the reason you always keep judging people and for which most of the times you repent. And that’s why you feel sorry!!!

For all the people, I judged and no longer in touch and those who are reading this, please know that I didn’t judge you because you weren’t weak, it is because I was weak In making decisions and the fear that I might be lost again.

And for the ones who did the same to me, please also know that I forgive you.

Life is hope..

Sometimes the survival feels like you are fighting a battle. It feels broken, lonely and isolated.

We always believe our confidence and ideas for life will be true until the day life duped you. The end of confidence is the changing moment. That moment you feel there is nothing to hang on, your life becomes empty and fraught. You curse the time and even before you realize, the damage is already done.

That’s when you need to find a new direction for life, something new to believe in to continue living. And most of the times is the way of thinking and its possible only with YOU! Life is all about belief which makes your survival easy, some hope, a ray of light for you to continue living.

It’s a war between, Emotions And Feelings And Logical Mind Vs Emotional Heart!!!!

So, please happy with yourself because the world is very very very hard on us.

A Love Story..

It wasn’t an easy road he has taken- he has worked at a call center at nights, saving every penny to run his everyday life. He also played a role of a daily marketing executive on weekends to get some extra money. All his life was about to earn money and take care of the family- he couldn’t lose an opportunity to find a penny and save it. He proved it that ‘Success doesn’t come to you, you run for it’ was true notion. He deserved every bit of it right now.

She loved him of course, he knew it too. But his dreams were more important than anything else. He admired her every bit and always appreciated her  hard work and perseverance. She always reminded him of a mirror image and a male version of his own.

He lost his father at a young age and had to take care of his family—ever since day his dad passed away, he juggled many jobs, barely making any savings hardly enough to pay the rent and run the home.

All he thought was “Together” will be the only place, when he first saw her. His heart ached, when he imagines a life without her. He is still missing the comfort in her arms, spark in his life and the laughter at the silliest jokes. Now life has begun to teach him that, roses doesn’t have thorns, it’s the thorns which have roses. The magic was felt without a word being spoken, just by a single touch. In her presence it felt like a lightning struck. Not sure, but his heart always pulls to her like a magnet, why?? Almost every meeting they had, was with passion and indulgence of their souls. Be it a coffee, or a dinner or a brisk walk it was with mounted passion. But he knew, the “Perfect” moment wouldn’t last long.

The time is gone and it’s time to accept the truth. He had to face it. All that it runs in the mind right now is running through life is hard, but accepting the facts of life is the hardest.

Well, people always think – ‘Goodbye’ & ‘Let Go’ are almost the same but there is a difference. Goodbye means, perhaps will meet again, when I’m ready and you are but ‘Letting Go’ is I’ll miss you to eternity. That’s when you realize it’s not YOU but someone else will hold her hands.

Then he realized “I thought your absence would transform me but it made me realize who I am.”

Don’t Breathe

Don’t breathe – definitely it doesn’t let you breath for the entire movie. Apt title!

Well, what an excellent movie. No hungama, not posh locations, no huge star cast. Shot entirely in a single apartment with a minimum characters.

Well, the movie is about a blind man defending his property against three intruders. Fighting to save his wealth from three greedy young kids and becomes successful in doing so.

Basically the movie teaches everyone a lesson that, if you are powerful in your way, and have set you boundaries to defend what you have, then no disability or anything in the whole planet will steal that away from you.


Definitely a worth watch!

Why Do Girls Need Unknown Freedom?

Most of the newly married couple these days either wants to get separates from parents & if you ask the most primary reason to the MEN they say it’s because the girl/wife.  Actually this is coming out from my exp because- It’s time for me to get married and most of the girls I talk prefer to stay independent away from IN LAWS—Pstt!

It’s pretty obvious that if they want to settle down in countries abroad because of fashionable life, high speed life, status and growth. I feel this is literally bullshit—don’t you think all this can be done staying here in the city with your families? And one more thing most importantly is I don’t see any reason why they don’t want to stay with their in laws, of course its not necessary that everyone are doing but the modern age I see 80% of the newly married couple prefer to live away from parents. And most obvious reason is adaptation of western culture—

In India and as per our Indian traditions & culture parents are considered as the most important member of family. They are wise, experienced & head of the family-they have taken care of this until this while & don’t you guys think at their old age, we should take care of them.

I seriously feel those you want to live away from family & settle abroad either are not taking their responsibilities seriously or they want to have some kind of unknown freedom which doesn’t may any sense to me. What’s the whole life, when you don’t have your closed ones with you.

Its just simply we are adapting stupid western culture.

The Old Is New Again

The people who will help you when you are low & the people who will support you when the life is turning upside down may not always be the same but some people back out their existence from helping you when you are down prove their relevance in your life for them.

There are always new friends who make way, like they say- plenty of fish in the sea. Of course only when you forget and move on..

Uncertainty of life – Confused between I LOVE YOU & I WANT YOU

I could never say “I love you” to anyone without stuttering. In fact, I haven’t done this at all in my life. Instead of “I Love you” my heart always says “I want you” in one go.

I don’t understand still the difference between “I LOVE YOU” & “I WANT YOU”, isn’t it the same? Its only when you love a person you want them for lifetime, isn’t it?

There were never words to describe how I feel for few people in life but in the beginning I always felt a relationship is fair enough when two people are together, but later I realized being together is as important as being fond for each other. It took years for me to define “WANT” and “LOVE” between people.

A relation which I thought of one day finally came to a point “Let’s not ruin this”. Though it became apparent that two people can’t be together, but I still don’t understand why two people can’t be together, if it wasn’t for love. It’s just a person you need to rely on, right? I never expected to be totally be ‘undefined’ on the relation.

So, there left a situation where it just can’t be hooked together.

But once again, in my life I have learnt a valuable lesson. It’s an era of chatting, Facebook friends, fake marriages, fake promises it’s just a time where I was molded to the best of situations myself. In the overuse, I understand the lost the weight once I had, but well known fact to myself.

Words are just tricky to fall for one person, but those tricky words to very difficult to overcome when haunting you through bad memories. Well, forget that people might have let you down again, but a few lines of togetherness would cushion the relation.

The problem with the words is they are easy to said than done. The most beautiful lines were only written in the history but not done. If the words don’t accompany with actions, they begin to lose their meaning. Life can’t be depended on words alone. Women specially make a relation & then hung up saying ‘Sorry’ well, this bloody sorry has hidden meanings that we tend to ignore but as MEN that is just not needed.

If it’s getting too confusing, here is my simple analysis- If everything you do, don’t mean anything you say, then what’s the point?

Love presents in simply things like being there when they promised they will, offering help to become perfect and remembering minute details to joy up the life. Burrow it all, throwing words, pointing out mistakes is just physically & mentally so stressful. If this is not happening, then this is not the person for you.

Words shouldn’t be uttered if they meant to be broken—we always deserve to be a with a person who will be there when they said they will and can fulfill the promises they made, without much force or any effort.

At the beginning of course those sweets texts, WhatsApp conversations, cute emails and emotional phone calls are important but as the relationship progresses all this become routine and there is something beyond you expect.

Again, in life you just need someone to rely on. 

2016 The Year Of Uncertainty

2016 has been a very tough year.

This year had moments which took my breath away which have been rippled through my heart and soul while, it also has lot of moments on anguish and questions. Well, to be honest mostly pertaining to relationships. Of course to the job as well!

The year has been lost to find the direction in life. However, the only question still stuck in my mind is “Why me?”

I’m really interested to know, why do; I have to go through what I’m going through? This isn’t kind of complaint of that sort but yes no one seem to be listening actually.

I would like to go somewhere, may be on top of the world’s top most building, a room covered with thick and strong fiber-glass, the corner of the room filled with water, and if I stood outside the room of the pent house, I’d see the world with poisonous people around.

Right in front of me, it rains, it shines, and the rain, the sun & the moon have to first take an approval from me before they meet the land. I want to get over before I can understand what’s going on. It so feels like fiction. I don’t understand why I’m suddenly feeling so sober?

I have never liked to be alone in my life, but now…

I never liked staying alone at home on weekends, but now…

I never liked watching YouTube videos, but now…

I never liked reading books, but now…

I never liked growing beard, but now…

I never liked vegetarian food, but now…

I never liked old movies, but now…

I used to have a real excitement for movies & music, but now…

I used to have an excellent judgment on anything, but now it’s only tough to take the call. It feels like my hands have become calloused.

I can only confront this way, the night will pass, and the morning is yet to come.

Sick Days I Hate!

What the fuck is Friendship Day all about?

All these bloody days are useless and nonsensical days which are used by pure business man to mint money from sales of greeting cards, phone calls and SMS. Why are we Indian’s so fancy about these bloody useless dates?

Friendship Day, Lovers Day, Father’s Day, Mother’s Day- NO! We don’t need a day to show mother we love? We don’t need a specific day to show father we respect? We don’t need a day to show friends how much we care? All this policy is followed and originated from western countries, because they live away from their families and friends.

And last Sunday being Friendship Day I got couple of messages from my friends wishing me, well, should we really need to calls our friends to show and recall how important are on these sick days?

Somehow I feel embarrassed and uncomfortable about these dates. Slowly, I feel, we should also have- Happy Masturbating Day–  Grrr!

The Confusion Lies Within..

LIFE—I think the only word which has more meanings than any other in English language. Some say it’s a cycle, life is a song, life is a game, life is a challenge, life is a highway, or like I say life is a bitch—whatever—so many expressions.

You feel so differently every moment and every second about life but no one can understand the actual. Well, we are the ones who know ourselves better than anyone, we are the one who think about our mood so we have a tendency to think something good all the time about us.

You know, our minds behave exactly the way we want it to be based on the situations. Sometimes, when you are in PAIN life sucks and when you are happy life seems to be beautiful. So as per the equation- everything depends on the input what we give in life.

But mostly—I feel sudden risks in life which makes you feel this way—sudden risk in life are—LOVE AND MARRIAGE. Otherwise I haven’t seen anyone saying LIFE SUCKS due to his education, life sucks due his work majorly. LOVE & MARRIAGE are the only two situation in life, it may hurt you or may give you happiness.

Love leads to short temper and short temper leads to confusion and confusion leads to inhuman activities which in turn leads to pain. So although generations change, traditions change, technology is ruining us yet the ambiguity still continues finding true love & true partner for marriage.

But for everyone inconsistency in a relationship rules the future. You feel good, you feel good. You feel insecure, then you take risks. But honestly most of us like me misuse the opportunities in life which leads to failure in life.

Time is a tyrant which is running very fast. It’s getting harder and harder to live alone—but still the confusion lies.